I Don’t Care, So Let Me Go Home! [Chapter Four]

Idle Talk: Though It Doesn’t Matter, The Maiden Screams

What is this?! This isn’t how it happened in my memories! I was supposed to be a princess, but instead I was separated from His Highness and locked in a small room.

Why?!

Nothing happened even when I turned the handle, shouted, or even hit the door. This isn’t how it was supposed to be!

“…Something is wrong…yes, something is wrong with everyone…”

I felt a bit relieved after saying this out loud. Yes, this was just a terrible mistake.

From an early age, I’d had a ‘memory.’ That memory was so wonderful that it had immediately fascinated the younger me. Then again, anyone would love being loved by a handsome lord, right?

Once I entered school, I should have been able to become a princess, marchioness, or wife of the future leader of the kingdom’s sorcerers.

My father and mother often troubled me by saying I should learn the kingdom’s etiquette, but something like that was unnecessary for me. Saying that, I’d never bothered to learn.

I played when I wanted, ate when I wanted and slept when I wanted. It didn’t matter what I did, after all, my future was already decided.

But, then, why, why, why?!

Bang.

The door was opened loudly and there stood my father with an ashen face.

…At any rate, His Highness was wonderful. Although it hadn’t been in the ‘memory’, he’d had wonderful golden hair and a kind face. I’m a little older than him, but it wasn’t bad at all to have such a handsome man whisper sweet nothings to me. While I thought about His Highness, I felt a warmth in my heart.

Then, suddenly, I felt a shocking pain on my cheek.

“How could you be so unfilial?! Why did you have to go and do something like this?!”

Did father just hit me?? Father was always sweet to me and never raised his hand against me. In front of the me who was holding my cheek, he only said:

“…Why?! With this…I’ll have to apologize with my life…”

Life?? Why? You don’t have to do that, though? Because I…eh? Why?

“Something like that is not necessary.” A cold voice echoed throughout the room. I don’t want to see my father crying so I turn to the owner of that voice.

It was the captain of the knights.

Silver hair that sometimes looks light blue in the light paired with pale blue eyes. He has a handsome face befitting the name ‘Ice-Cold’ Knight. But, I froze when I saw him.

Scary, scary, scary, scary.

I don’t want to look away, make noise, or do anything at all. I’m scared. I’m scared of this man. When he looked at me, I couldn’t move, no, I didn’t want to move. Seeing him was unbearable.

“We don’t want to lose a talented vassal like yourself.”

“Oh! I’m not worthy of such words…” Father begins to cry as he says this.

“Hey, get rid of this.”

“Huh?”

A knight who I could not see very well because of the darkness, dragged away something heavy.

“That’s…”

“Oh, that’s an assassin that was sent over by one of Irene-sama’s followers.”

Assassin? For my dad? Or…no, it couldn’t be for me! I’m me, after all!!

“For protecting her…how can we ever thank you, Your Excellency…”

“It’s not needed. However, I’d like you to deal with this matter.”

When that was said to him, father closed his eyes. Then, he said “…I’m afraid that my daughter will be sent to the monastery.”

“I understand. We will do as you say.”

Wait, something like that! I opened my mouth to scream before I met that man’s eyes.

I lost consciousness then and there.



When I opened my eyes, I found myself in a familiar room. Oh, it was just a dream. What a terrible nightmare I had. As I sighed in relief, I heard voices whispering from the other side of the door.

“…Did milady really do what they say?”

“That’s right. Milord is furious.”

“Of course, he is. Her partner was the Crown Prince, wasn’t it? And he was disinherited on top of all that.”

“You’re totally right.”

I can hear giggles, but forget about the rudeness these maids are displaying and just listen. Eh? …Wasn’t that a dream?

They were getting closer to the door, but without even realizing that I was awake, they continued.

“I mean, when all’s said and done, she did something amazing didn’t she? Milady, I mean.”

“Well, ever since she was a little girl, she would say strange things from time to time, but there’s no way anyone would think that would happen.”

“Well, anyone is free to dream, aren’t they?”

“With that figure?”

I felt something stab at my heart.

“If she had been a little more beautiful, then it might have been different.”

“Stupid! Even if she were more beautiful, she’s still just a baron’s daughter, isn’t she? It’s impossible.”

“Yeah, but it’s a waste about her good looks, right?”

“Definitely, but anyone who just eats and sleeps will be like that, right?”

“Do you mean yourself, Anna?”

“You!”

The voices of the gossiping maids fade. That’s when I understand the reality that I had been ignoring. When I look into the mirror, all I see is an overweight and ugly woman with dry blonde hair.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!

This is a lie!! It’s all a lie!!

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6 thoughts on “I Don’t Care, So Let Me Go Home! [Chapter Four]”

  1. i kinda feel pity for these characters who were written solely to drive the plot. shallow, one dimensional cardboard cut-outs. slap a name on them and throw ’em in the shredder once they’ve been used.

    1. Me too, but well, in her case – especially since Irene wanted to engagement annulled too – they should have been able to proceed without the whole condemnation event?? Like…just talk to your dad my dude (for the Crown Prince).

  2. Thanks for the chapter~

    Since she for sure thought she’s gonna be fine no matter what she did, she forgot that ‘that’ is her reality now. Forgetting how the og heroine acted. I guess. (´・ω・`)

    Anyway I read this for my queen, Rururia. ヽ(・∀・)

    1. Then again, she’s reincarnated as the ‘heroine’ not the ‘villainess’.

      As she said : “that memory was so wonderful that it had immediately fascinated the younger me.”

      If it had been the other way around, she’ll definitely be inclined to do only ‘good deed’ to avoid the bad end. From my opinion

      1. You’re very welcome!! Thanks for reading!! (*⌒▽⌒*)θ~♪

        Yeah, I definitely agree with you. Like so many heroines in this type of story, she ended up acting like the villainess instead. The author’s notes (for the previous chapter, I believe, I’ll post their ‘background setting’ soon) actually indicates that both Irene and Maria remember their past lives and that’s why they act that way. Though like, Irene’s follower sending an assassin has be seriously suspicious about her. Like, please don’t be some white lotus!!

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