Chapter Ten: The Sin of Stupidity (Part I)
“No. I couldn’t lie. Your face is so handsome that I might even fall in love with you.”
My heart is pounding! Thumping!
In other words, this might be that. [Even if people throughout the world claim that you are lying, as long as you’re saying it’s true, I will believe you] That’s such a handsome line! …well, if I lied, then you wouldn’t have considered me, so it doesn’t mean that you absolutely agree to that.
The most popular capture target of “The Prisoner of the Miniature Garden”! The main hero’s elements are perfect!
“Huh? What is it?”
“Are you going to tell me that it was all a lie? … Don’t act badly.”
“Eh? What are you talking about? I was just acting…badly.”
…For the third time! This dog has got bite! I’d say only twice, but you’ve done too much!
I protested by glaring at him, while he was telling me off.
…Huh? Wait a minute. Isn’t his face cute right now? Isn’t it like he’s looking up at me with tearful eyes?
I don’t mind if I blush a little at his cuteness! This much is okay!
“Why do you keep acting, baka? If you’re stupid, then be stupid and you just have to express your emotions just as you would.”
I wanted to turn my eyes away, but Kaname’s hand grabbed my cheek and didn’t allow me to do just that.
…I don’t know what it meant.
I don’t know even know how to react.
“Don’t pretend to be the same as usual when you have tearful eyes.”
If I look like I’m going to cry as well, I want everyone to know that it’s because my cheeks hurt.
Also, because I’m glad that Kaname believed in my absurd story.
That’s why he doesn’t have to look at me in that way.
…Why is it that the person who says they’re not going to cry ends up being the one who cries the most?
“…Don’t hide anything from me.”
As soon as I heard that phrase “leave his lips,” I could see the sealed key to the box, which had been wrapped around my chest in chains, burst open.
From the moment I first regained my memory, the feelings I had been trying not to think about and was pretending not to see, overflowed from my chest.
In short, I was that happy when he believed in my absurd story.
But at the same time, I was petrified.
I even wished he had just laughed at me for lying.
…Because it wasn’t just about being a reincarnate.
I wasn’t the same as who I was.
As soon as he let go of my cheek, large tears trickled down from my eyes.
What did my tears mean?
I wondered if it was the sense of guilt; or is it just self-preservation?
“Well, you… if Kaname believes in my story, then I have something to ask you.”
“Ask away. It’s not too late.”
“Well… I need…”
I’m scared. I want to run away. I don’t want to tell you.
I don’t want to make my ‘sin’ clear.
…But if Kaname wants to listen to it…if you don’t deny me…
“Do you think I took away the life of [Empress]?”
“I want you to listen to my “confession”.
In my previous life, I liked watching stories about the reincarnation in otome games online.
The person is reborn as a full-time heroine or a villain’s daughter, destroying the original character’s fate.
I was honestly longing for it! Mostly, a character who will be placed in an unfortunate position and the end can carve out their own destiny.
However, the more novels I read; the more questions arose in my mind.
“Where did the main character go?”
Some of the stories were explained, and others were not, so it became even more muddled.
But again, it’s about a world made in fiction. In the end, it was just the author’s punishment, so I dared not think about it anymore. I thought I should simply enjoy the story without thinking about it.
However, when I was actually reincarnated as an otome game character, that question’s weight became entirely different.
If there was salvation, I was undoubtedly myself before I recovered my memory… at the least; I am the only “Empress” who has lived in this world since then. I didn’t take over someone’s life halfway through it.
Nevertheless, the spirit of the Empress who should have been born as me must have been there. I’m afraid I took away the life of the Empress. Such doubts were always on my mind.
So, when I thought that you might have been a reincarnate, I felt really saved.
There was someone. There was someone here who is an accomplice; someone who may have also taken away people’s lives. I was happy to have someone who could share the same sin as I have.
It was short but genuine.
What’s more, my silly and careless remarks made me realize that I was a fake.
I felt like my feet had collapsed.
I felt like I was alone in the world.
He listened silently to my confession, which I told him with snot and tears all over my face.
And when I finished talking, he put his hand on my head with a big sigh.
“…Really, you’re such a fool, Ayaka. Instead of thinking about something you can’t help from happening, use it for something that could cure your stupidity.”
Contrary to harsh words, Kaname’s hand that stroked my head was very gentle.