Chapter Twelve: The Sin of Stupidity (Part III)
Where am I? Who am I?
This is my house. I am Hououin Ayaka.
Am I really Hououin Ayaka? Who was I in my previous life?
At least I am the only Hououin Ayaka living in this world. In my previous life, I… What was my name? Oh no, I just realized for the first time that although I can remember the otome game clearly, I can only remember fragmentary memories in my previous life…! Oh my gosh! This life is eroding them! I’m scared!
…Oh, well, but, hmm. If I can’t go back to my previous life anyway, I shouldn’t remember people I’ll miss.
Let’s see. What were we talking about? Relativity? Evolution?
“…That’s how it is, simply put.”
I put my hand on my head again, smiling bitterly at the completely neglected me.
While smiling at me, who was utterly at a loss, Kaname placed his hand on my head again.
“You are you, Ayaka. That’s fine. Don’t think any deeper. Whatever God intended; you were reincarnated with the sole option of surviving the life you were given. So, you just have to live as you please. Don’t over think about roles, sins, or anything else.”
Kaname’s words went straight to my heart.
…As expected, he’s good at teaching matters that I don’t understand.
After a beat, something warm gradually spread deep in my heart.
“…If I had stolen someone else’s life, would you have forgiven me?”
“There’s nothing to forgive… I didn’t know her, so I don’t have any interest in that… And if you were the real Empress, then I would be in even more hell than I am now. You’re stupid, so you can just go live easily. You don’t have to keep trying.”
“That’s what you meant!? Isn’t that change in opinion too drastic, from saying that I should think more about curing my stupidity to saying that I should leave it as it is?”
“I’m just changing my words according to circumstances. To be exact, you’re telling me to be stupid enough not to let things bother me.”
“You know, you’re the Emperor! But in the shadows, I made you my dog.”
“Well, that’s the story of the otome game character, ‘Ryudoji Kaname’. It’s not me.”
When I was playing with Kaname as usual, I felt like this was enough. Even if no one else forgives me, as long as Kaname accepts me, then everything’s okay.
I’m stupid anyway, so I won’t understand even if I think about difficult things.
Rather than worrying about the darkness within, I just want to think about fun things.
…Well, if the time comes when I’ll be condemned for stealing someone’s life, then that’ll be the time to think about it!
I’ll stop thinking about the possibility of being blamed by the real Empress, or that being born was wrong, and just enjoy the life of being, ‘Hououin Ayaka’!
Perhaps even the soul of the real “Empress,” is enjoying the dreary gap life in the ordinary bowl that I was supposed to have (sadly, considering my previous life… Sorry, Empress). Yup!
So, for now,
“…What a gap!”
I hugged him tightly for a moment, which caught him off guard.
…Well, Kaname. You look like a sturdy bean sprout, even more, that you’re training your body unexpectedly. We’ve just been studying. When are you finding the time to work out? When? This might also be due to hero correction.
I thought he would shake me off as soon as I did, but I opened my eyes, and he stood still, so I decided to enjoy the skin-ship as it is.
I don’t know what Kaname is thinking. Where can you see an owner asking permission to hug their dog?
“…Thank you. I needed that.”
His shirt got wet because I buried my face in it.
It’s outrageous how I’m someone whose tears spill even when I’m happy.
“I just feel like I was saved…. Kaname has always helped me.”
Studying, manners, and mental care, calling him a butler or secretary, may be better suited than my manager.
That’s why it may be best for him to be the right arm of his half-brother. Well, it’s impossible, considering their current feud. I mean, I’m not too fond of it. Those who wish Kaname hadn’t been born, in the end, even if they changed their minds in the future, I don’t want them to be by his side.
…Father, he seems to like Kaname, and I keep wondering if he’ll be able to hire him at the Hououin Corporation in the future as vice president.
Then, even when the time comes for him to graduate from being my dog, I can still get involved in his affairs.
Since I was thinking about the future, I couldn’t hear the words that Kaname said.
“It’s nothing…don’t mind it. Go study, if not… Since I don’t have enough units to get ahead of, let’s just play chess.”
“Wow, chess! I’m currently at a losing streak of 32 times, but I’ll win this time!”
“…You’re expressing your thoughts too much. Practice your poker face more.”
…I wonder if I misheard it. No, I guess not.
“I don’t think you were the only one who was saved.”
There’s no reason for you to say that. I’m just causing you trouble with my stupidity.